hey guys.
honesty on the table, okay.
so it's no secret that i don't say a lot. i read most of the threads, but i usually don't have anything to say. and it's the same on mumble.
in general, i consider myself as quiet person. there is, however, another side to this, a side which i only recently started to consider.
i haven't been as involved in the clan as i should have been, because i have no idea where i'm going to be in a years time. when i joined
you guys at the end of last year, i'd been back in sa for two years, but my time back in the motherland has not been what i wanted.
i'd gotten a taste of an 'international life style', and i will do anything to get that back.
please don't get me wrong though, this year with you guys has been awesome! and i want it to continue. my only fear is that when that time comes, and it will, i will be abandoning the team and clan. i don't want to do that to you. and i know the more involved i am in the clan the harder it
will be to leave.
so right now i'm on the fence. i want to be part of the competitive team, and i want to win, but when my opportunity comes to leave, i'm not going
to hesitate, which means i will be abandoning you guys. i don't want to do that.
and just to clarify, when i say leave, i don't mean [grrr]. i don't want to be part of any other clan.
2012 rAge Debrief
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s3xy_j0nny
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You'll find that [grrr] doesn't really wash off; it's like a life sentence.
DryMan! You must do what you need to do dude, as J0nny says you will always be welcome here. Please just keep us in the loop, who knows you may only start travelling well into next year and we could use you! Anyway we will plan as if you're leaving tomorrow, thanks for letting us know.
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Epic thread. I really like the push to keep the honesty flowing. Its awesome to see and something that is at the core of our values. That being said, I need to come clean too.. so to speak. (bare in mind I am emotionally minded and gifted.. so this is going to sound like a sop story… bare with me please – wall of text inc).
I have mentioned briefly that I don’t know where my future with competitive gaming lies. This year has been touch n go all along and I have managed to manage this far.
Let me get something crystal clear. I love gaming. It is an absolute passion of mine. I would do it instead of sleeping or working if my body or finances allowed it.
What has been difficult in 2012 for me has been gaming on a schedule. Let me elaborate. I might have 4 hours to game in the evenings. But I don’t have 4 hours of dedicated gaming time.
This will be compounded for me now that real life has kicked in. This means that if I am jamming and enjoying myself and knee deep in level 84 about to destroy XYZ boss, or have 5 tickets left to bleed to win this match and I need to leave my PC for whatever reason, I will. This unfortunately means that Mon, Tue, Thurs, Sun 19:30 – 22:30 all year round (what a proper comp team needs imho) won’t be possible for me.
It hurts a lot to say that.. Since I started gaming, competitive has been a part of me and something I hold very close to my heart. Its always been all or nothing and balls to wall. Sometimes with startling success, other times with disappointment. Either way, I have thrived on it.. Thrived on the competitive scene especially at rAges where it was all in your face, spectator value, loud noises etc (you all saw this year…). I want that or I don’t want it at all.
As we have made the decision to be up there with the best of them in 2013, it pains me to say I don’t have what it takes anymore. I must be able to come and go as I please and my schedule will never be the same week on week, weekend on weekend. This and the craving for intense competition means that even the chilled team will only be frustrated by my commitment or lack thereof. If I could live a happy life, gaming as much as I want as long as I want, I would game to compete in a game with this fine [s]organization[/s] family we know as [grrr].
(I would play BF3 for 10 hours a day. The fact that I can’t sink all the time in the world to it only frustrates me more and is why I have a serious lack of concentration on any one game. I have played over 10 AAA games in the past 3 months. See the problem.)
Anything could change but as it stands right now, I will not be able to commit and compete at the required level in the next season.
Somehow, there is always a positive though. I love people, I interact with them and analyse communication techniques and mannerisms. I can tell a lot about a person by talking to them for 2 minutes. I believe myself to be a very good judge of character from very little knowledge of a person. It’s a strength of mine in the real world and its always fascinating seeing how close I can guess to picturing someone purely by knowing only their online alias.
I wouldn’t mind trying out the management of recruitment into [grrr], whether it be for competitive gaming or just for lols and because the person fits the unique [grrr] profile. Nothing wrong with the current cross-examination and questioning that goes on in the forums, but I think a combination of pubbing with a person and actually just casually chatting in a private mumble channel as if it were over a drink or cuppa can really tell a lot about a person. Its going to take a bit of thinking, but with the down time in competitive gaming at the moment and great minds at the helm of this family and team, I can come up with a formulae of sorts. Maybe it needs its own thread, but I am stating it here.
I have mentioned briefly that I don’t know where my future with competitive gaming lies. This year has been touch n go all along and I have managed to manage this far.
Let me get something crystal clear. I love gaming. It is an absolute passion of mine. I would do it instead of sleeping or working if my body or finances allowed it.
What has been difficult in 2012 for me has been gaming on a schedule. Let me elaborate. I might have 4 hours to game in the evenings. But I don’t have 4 hours of dedicated gaming time.
This will be compounded for me now that real life has kicked in. This means that if I am jamming and enjoying myself and knee deep in level 84 about to destroy XYZ boss, or have 5 tickets left to bleed to win this match and I need to leave my PC for whatever reason, I will. This unfortunately means that Mon, Tue, Thurs, Sun 19:30 – 22:30 all year round (what a proper comp team needs imho) won’t be possible for me.
It hurts a lot to say that.. Since I started gaming, competitive has been a part of me and something I hold very close to my heart. Its always been all or nothing and balls to wall. Sometimes with startling success, other times with disappointment. Either way, I have thrived on it.. Thrived on the competitive scene especially at rAges where it was all in your face, spectator value, loud noises etc (you all saw this year…). I want that or I don’t want it at all.
As we have made the decision to be up there with the best of them in 2013, it pains me to say I don’t have what it takes anymore. I must be able to come and go as I please and my schedule will never be the same week on week, weekend on weekend. This and the craving for intense competition means that even the chilled team will only be frustrated by my commitment or lack thereof. If I could live a happy life, gaming as much as I want as long as I want, I would game to compete in a game with this fine [s]organization[/s] family we know as [grrr].
(I would play BF3 for 10 hours a day. The fact that I can’t sink all the time in the world to it only frustrates me more and is why I have a serious lack of concentration on any one game. I have played over 10 AAA games in the past 3 months. See the problem.)
Anything could change but as it stands right now, I will not be able to commit and compete at the required level in the next season.
Somehow, there is always a positive though. I love people, I interact with them and analyse communication techniques and mannerisms. I can tell a lot about a person by talking to them for 2 minutes. I believe myself to be a very good judge of character from very little knowledge of a person. It’s a strength of mine in the real world and its always fascinating seeing how close I can guess to picturing someone purely by knowing only their online alias.
I wouldn’t mind trying out the management of recruitment into [grrr], whether it be for competitive gaming or just for lols and because the person fits the unique [grrr] profile. Nothing wrong with the current cross-examination and questioning that goes on in the forums, but I think a combination of pubbing with a person and actually just casually chatting in a private mumble channel as if it were over a drink or cuppa can really tell a lot about a person. Its going to take a bit of thinking, but with the down time in competitive gaming at the moment and great minds at the helm of this family and team, I can come up with a formulae of sorts. Maybe it needs its own thread, but I am stating it here.
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RussianElite.
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Question? What do we think about approaching members of other clans? I jammed a bit on the weekend, like an hour in total and I say this 1 guy that seems cool and pretty good. He had on tags but not for a clan that is part of the DGL.
So I didn't say anything but what are our thoughts on that? It would be best to get newbies but what if there are guys in clans already?
So I didn't say anything but what are our thoughts on that? It would be best to get newbies but what if there are guys in clans already?
RussianElite. wrote:LMAO
What the story Russian?
@ Paul,honestly I think most of the worhwhile players will allready be in clans? So we dont really have a option.
If we want to recruit we should be able to poach players from other clans. Even better, is clans that doesnt compete in dgl...
Another point. We should also be seeing if we can rope members back in. Like Lep, who is a really good bf3 player?
Maybe someone should just contact him and ask: "What the story?"
